happy new year =D

2007.. is a 'lazy' year for me. haha.. i mean im the one who's lazy. lol.
its really fast, gonna end soon. i thought nothing good was going to happen. eventually something good happened. =P hee.







HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

complicated

为什么有些事情 我会想得很简单？

而有些事情却又想得那么复杂呢？

bad day

man,

i feel like crying =( today something unhappy happened during work. on the way home, was reading the memory keeper's daughter, David(the daddy) died of heart attack y? y does the good people always go earlier?

='(

man,
im going to cut hair tml...

4th

man,

today we kinda had a 'lecture' from calvin seriously i dont understand. whats the big problem here? it seems we had a very super serious problem but i dont know what. calvin was harsh today but im ok with it though. he said 'dont let u urself hinder everyone's effort' i somehow feel its being said for someone and i encountered something which make me very angry today
uncle P: where u all going? tozan?
tze han: erm no (i cant hear him actually)
uncle P: then what? celebrate christmas?

fuck. why are u so sarcastic?

man im angry! =(
miss u =(

3rd day

hey man,

today i met a bunch of ppl at bakerzin =D they look like poly students but i cant really guess their age. 2 of them are jokers (1chinese 1 malay) haha i kept laughing when im taking order(they made me laugh!) and the chinese guy asked me to continue laughing wahahaha =x joel is not really happy with them he said they're childish haha but the malay guy really touched me cos when they leaving i was cleaning the tables and he walked towards me eyes looking at kim they all wanna pass me something at first i tot hp no. lol he actually secretly passed me 2 bucks his hand touching mine leh! =x *shy* its not the money that counts its the heart they may look childish to joel or others but im really touched and reminded me of 5a! jokers but very very nice ppl =)

man come back soon

im happy with my life

jason said i've to seriously change my life cos im too too busy have no life and he wait for me to be free till flower wither liao =/ man he say he can accompany me go shopping man where are you what should i do nobody here to listen to me nobody here to joke with me nobody here to let me listen to laughter a day seems like years =x jason is lor soh =x he keep saying i've to plan my schedule well! (so that i've free time for u? =S)

jason: 'the best birthday present from you is for me to be able to meet you and accompany you shopping...' ::SSSS???

man come help me =/

man

さみし~　=(

bakerzin

denise : u o level ah?
sy: no
denise: Uni ah?
sy: no
denise : poly ah?
sy: no
KIM: denise u lousy leh, ask everything everything wrong..
denise: den wat? NS ah?

haha.. denise very funny. his laughter too =X

today!!
dont know why siew fong cannot move faster abit! driving me crazy!

one day,
when ah lei gets very very angry, he'll kill me with his knife!wahhahaa!!

everybody is calling me dora. but i felt sense of belonging. lol. cos big serene always call me.. 'our dora' lol

=(

getting to slp can be a tough thing to do lately...

cupcake! doughnuts! cake! =D

made today! =D jess, i use the frosting u told me. very nice but i should use margarine instead. lol. and..... the washing part... scares me off. =X

vanilla cupcake with erm.. what u call it jess? lol. butter + sugar + lemon frosting? =P










donuts from munchy!
clara says it's 4.5 star
really very nice! =P









backdated.kor's birthday cake. 29th Nov.
Chocolate Amer from Bakerzin =)
chocolate. chocolate. and more chocolate.

I am

call me a coward
call me a clown
that's who I am

wrong

why am i excelling and happy in the area i cant be in forever?

25th Nov steamboat @my hse! =D

the position of the photos is making me mad. lol. just look at the photos! =)












look at this tofu. LOL! mel cut it! =X

we really had a very wonderful night that day. laughed so much haha! miss u all!!! =D thanks for coming...

happy thursday butterfly in stomach

contradicting right? haha

today,
ah lei joked with me and smiled at me and gave me funny faces!!! haha (previously he was giving me angry faces! and wont even look at me!!!!) =X

today,
ah go apologise cos he missed out one item (not like ah lei who will give me unhappy face =X)

today,
i felt butterfly in my stomach and think about my decision...

today,
i know... who are the good people.

today,
i woke up...

today,
is kor's birthday =)

No Child Deserves to Suffer

Apartheid Racism are taking over
Racial Riots, Bombings will be back
Innocent children will suffer
What can I do?
Nothing, but to sit and watch
To feel the anger in my heart
To feel the pain of the innocents
No Child deserves to suffer

When will the children be sleeping peacefully,
oblivious to the world around him?
How could I take away the pain?
How could I alleviate the suffering?
Tell me how.



wrote this when i was Sec 5
cant forget the moment when Miss Pillay read it to the whole class.=)




zinc is to 5a
sy is to cruel society
5a, found ur name?





















hate racist-

money money money

sy dont wanna be money slave.


no. I have good result and not who I am today cos of 5a.
after i left 5a, decisions are all mine, thats y they sux.

blurred

sometimes I don't know what I'm doing.
sometimes I regret things that I've done.
sometimes I wish I can turn back time.
sometimes I'm afraid.
sometimes I'm afraid of being alone.
sometimes I'm afraid of being in a crowd.
sometimes I'm afraid of losing something.


sometimes I thought of 5a, i felt guilty.
because of 5a, I am who I am today.

Do you procrastinate?

If so, you are definitely not alone. In one survey, 83% of college students admitted to procrastinating on academic tasks, with 50% admitting to procrastinating at least half of the time.

The tendency to procrastinate represents a lack of self-control.

From a temporal perspective, lack of self-control arises from the fact that our behavior is more heavily influenced by immediate consequences than by delayed consequences.


do you have self-control? got these from my text-Introduction to Learning and Behavior.
is self-control a thing that is difficult to achieve? is self-control = willpower?

换了blog name!!!! =）

因为好像越来越多人在读 =X 哈哈

还是需要自己的小空间嘛 =））

最近买了一个欧洲音乐会的vcd

买的原因是因为那个交响乐让我好感动。。

他们玩的音乐是发自内心的喜悦。。

我们呢？

几时我们也可以像他们那样啊？


zinc misses 5a-

im sorry

the purpose for the title was because
i felt i had a high expectation
for myself
& others.

not too long ago
not recently
i found out
or rather
i realised
i felt it's... not nice
not to reply to ppl's msg
even an 'okay'

why had i realised this
its because
i had to mass send some info
and unknowingly
inside me
i demand a reply

then i realised
cause & effect

but now
im trying my very best
to reply every single msg
even if it's forwarded msg
i would TRY to reply
good morning!
Have a nice day!
Good night!
whatever.

cos i dont like when ppl
dont reply to me

and i dont mind being the one
to end the conversation

i mean
for example
A:ok, i go slp le bye!
sy: ok! good night! =)

the title
purpose
it's my fault
cos my expectation
was high
and I wasn't the way
I wan others to be

心血来潮

心血来潮想用中文来blog..哈哈

Pavarotti唱了这首歌让我好感动。。。
世上到底有多少人能在做自己喜欢的事的当儿也让身边的人感到骄傲呢？

Britain got talent - Pual Potts

my favourite song!!!

Franz schubert (1797 - 1828)

'mum said it's terrible to go thru life while wishing u're someone else...'

- ivan - says:
yah yah yah
- ivan - says:
she is so correct
sy says:
but most ppl do.. and think so
- ivan - says:
that is your perception
sy says:
hmmm.. at least not u.

- ivan - says:
and why think like any other pple....
- ivan - says:
correct..
- ivan - says:
like last time my father always scold me for bad sch results....
- ivan - says:
then i always compare my lousier classmates....
sy says:
lol!
- ivan - says:
then he will say.... why dun you compare with better students then myself
- ivan - says:
then i think/.....
- ivan - says:
what the hell....
- ivan - says:
why bother to compare myself to others....
- ivan - says:
be it for better or worse its still other's shadow....
- ivan - says:
then once i leave sch i look for another shadow meh... can't be mah...
- ivan - says:
might as well i just compete with myself/...
- ivan - says:
with my own capability
- ivan - says:
and push myself
- ivan - says:
like setting a goal for yourself... it must be realistic kinda things.... its logical.... so use your logical mind to think and you will get your own ans....
- ivan - says:
if you ans is still to follow other pple and or wishing to be other pple.... then take it i never say anything
- ivan - says:
:)

Wonderful

wow. i cant believe what I have gone through today, a stress-less Saturday.. =D

went for mg and chanted another half hour after mg which makes a total of 1hr daimoku! =D

followed by breakfast then to Vivo! went to page one, saw this book and immediately, sher and I loved it. =X So we each bought one. =X haha (we need to eat air next week =/)















After buying the book, we happily went to Pacific Coffee Company, the seat were very comfortable. =D and we had a big table to ourselves. *grin*






























*opps* I got hooked to drawing. but I did finished 3 of my assignments! =P 6assignments and 6 theory paper to go though. =X

we stayed there for about 3 to 4 hrs before we proceed to evening gongyo =D such wonderful day to go for both morning and evening gongyo. =P

after evening gongyo, we went to Marina square for dinner and..... we drew! =X haha!

























I did a so-called journal with lots pictures. =P haha
It felt so nice to express my feelings by drawing. hee.
dont be mistaken by the crying gal, im not having that kinda weather now! =D

and kind Song drove us home!! =D and he sang YE LAI XIANG! very funny! =P











These were done by Francyn! She's really a very very good person! =D LOVEHER!
she's going china again. haha

ONE BIG STEP FORWARD!!!

=D

IM ONE BIG STEP NEARER TO MY DREAM! YEAH!! hee..


hmmm. recently and now towards early nov, i dont tihnk i have much time to blog =( my assignments...haix.. is like mount everest liao. lol haha. =X and 2 major exams!! wish me luck!

lacrimoso

dolente dolore traurig mesto triste tristancente

Archipelago 051007

kw: where u all?
sy: we at the niao there.
kw: u come here la, i also got niao.

-_-!!

sy: where are we going?
kw: come, i bring you go eat peanut.
sy: man? got pub got peanuts one??


haha. went to archipelago at boat quay with sher, kw, wc, yk. =) and we ate lots peanuts. =X lol. and its a camwhore day. haha. =x took lots emo pics. and i saw someone pee. =XXXX

Happy! =D

******

Often, we hope to be someone other than ourselves...
Always, we see the negative side of us or rather we set a super high expectation of our own self.
but what will happen if we start to appreciate ourselves more and to understand and forgive ourselves more?
will we be happier?

and often, we tend to very concerned about how ppl may look or think of us...
but i see some who are 'not that concerned'... who do things they like and doesnt care how others will look at them... are their carefree life much more happier?

wondering @.@

*****

Dearest Good Friend Lun,

I felt you're ignoring me. you can deny it of cos. but ur face ur attitude show it all.
I dont know why or what I've done to make u react this way... but.. again, easier said than done (for myself =X), think u should be frank. If our 'case' is similar to ur previous 'case', then, i think something is seriously wrong with you.

haix =(

*****

Dear Dora,

This week had been a very bad one...
I haven touch my violin still. haven start on assignment still.
haven been doing music theory hw still. haven been studying still.
haven do japanese hw still. haven been chanting still...

can I have the memory bread? I would just have to stamp the bread on my books, eat it and I can remember everything.

can u give me something interesting to make clones?
1 for work
1 to study
1 to practice violin
1 to practice theory
1 to do japanese hw
1 to chant lots
1 to play
1 to sleep
total 8. =) should be more than enough.

i dont feel like 19. i felt like 26. how?
i rejected clara for asking me out for more than 3 times le, how?
i woke up everyday with no motivation, how?

dear dora, what interesting stuff do u have to help me solve my probs?

jelly =|

******

sher and i went to watch 'death at a funeral' ha and i tell u, it's lame. =x lol but scary movie is lamer. wahhaha
and when im home, i watched secret by jay chou. and i regret not watching it at the cinema. youtube sometimes ........ =X (but must appreciate=D) I cried alot during the show, cos once i start i cannot stop. but luckily i didnt watch it at cinema if not, very ugly. =XXX LOL. i know ppl reading will be like...wth.. lol.. woman are fickle minded. =P

moviefreak =O


I saw engene today and I seriously extremely missed him.. ='( but always, i dont have time for him.

sorry =[


still, take me to lalaland~